As I was lying in bed this moring after waking up at 5am, the moon was shining brightly through my window onto my bed. It was just one of those moments in life where everything is just perfect. I HATE waking up in the morning, but today I was just so moved by the beauty of it that I couldn't help but be completely content with everything in my life. Lying there, I didn't have that need to be with someone, I didn't need to justify who I am, why I do the things I do, what I look like or ...

It's official! i am an emotional masochist. Yip there comes a time in one's life when you realise that you just can't be happy - infact you won't allow yourself to be happy. it comes a nocking on your door but you just kick it in the groin. the reason for my epiphany is a situation with a man once again. You geuessed it, a man wants to be with me and i'm not very enthusiastic. the man is the ex. yes one and the same ex i thought was the end of me. well he came crawling back and i t...

We just had a four day weekend in Sunny SA and this usually means braais, parties and general mayhem for those of us who frequent certain clubs. Well this year was no exception what so ever. Work ended on Thursday afternoon and signaled the beginning of the weekend, but I had nothing planned for the entire weekend. This would not do of course as I was not going to let myself sit at home and feel sorry for myself. Unfortunatley nothing came up for me to do on Tursday night but was soon...

Yip didn't take too long to happen but it did. I broke up with him, the man I thought was going to be THE ONE... should have known better, its not like its never happened before. Only this time he didn't get tired of me, I actually thought he was too much of a whimp. too Fem for me thank you very much. What was I thinking. Anyway, life goes on...

I have decided i am going to start writhing short stories. You know, run of the mill porn. Should be fun I think seeing that i get to practice everything I want to write about on the new boyfriend. Yes he actually called himself my boyfriend today. YIPPPEEEE!!! Ok now that that is out of my system bring on the quill and parchment...

I have been so lazy lately. Usually i have lots of energy and spunk, but these days i just couldn't be bothered to do anything around the house. Even at work its getting to be a problem. Would love to know what causes sudden bouts of absolute laziness for long periods of time. Hope i'll snap out of it soon

Last night a friend of mine convinced me to go with him to a Drag Show at the cute gay pub. It was good fun, but naturally I have absolutely no brakes when it comes to over indulding. Yip after being drug and alcohol free for a while it so happens that I am coerced into doing it again (didn't take more than a bit of a twist to my rubber arm...) Its Monday morning and I feel like death warmed over and alas, i can't even stay home and sleep it off. The show must go on!! Why oh ...

In November I started temping for this really great company after I had resigned from my previous job. November consisted of training. December we all started out in the Temp Call Centre to assist with year end changes for our members. January saw me move to a new call centre with more prospects. I thought I was doing really well until yesterday when they showed me my stats for the last month and a half. I must admit that I was so dissapointed that I cried. On top of this I had to go for ...

Its Saturday night, I'm actually home for a change, just chilling on my couch with absolutely no intention of doing anything or going anywhere. The phone rings. Its T. Yes really. Wants to know what i'm doing. Nothing, I say and quite enjoing it. He wants to know if he can come over. My resolve crumbles and I say yes. He arrives, sits in my lounge for 20 minutes not saying anything really. I hate small talk. He askes if i want to go to my favorite club with him. I say no thank you. H...

So today, this guy I used to spend a lot of time with, decides to e-mail me after a month of non-comunicado to my utter supprise naturally. After a couple of replies of small talk, I ask him what the story is and why he's beating round the bush. Turns out he wants to moan about the chick he dumped me for. Let me give you some background info: I met T at work right, nice inteligent guy only not the same race. But I don't care about stuff like that, so things start to happen. We see mo...

So today I decided to start a blog. This is new for me, because I don't even keep a journal. I suppose that everyone should have a place where you can have your say and nobody can do a damn thing about it. LIFE IS GOOD!!